How Did I Get Here?
For my first blog post, let’s just jump right into it. By the end of this, you will understand just how much I don’t have it all together. I want to be able to reach people who are also seeking to understand how to cope with everything while also trying to get to a place in their careers where they can feel fulfilled and valued because I’m still trying to do the same. I truly believe having it all is mostly about doing what you love, but also learning how to process the struggles and obstacles that come with the territory. I wouldn’t want the career of my dreams if I didn’t have to work my ass off to get it. With that said, I have not reached that point in my life where I feel like I have that. Here’s hoping it’s only temporary.
Before I take you down memory lane, I don’t want this place to turn into a place where we compare each other’s struggles. My experiences are mine and mine alone. Anything I share here is not meant to make anyone feel like their experiences are less than or vice versa. I’m just here to write about what I know and how I’m getting through it.
This is a quick timeline of my career in the entertainment industry so far.
2009 - Moved to Los Angeles to be an “actor”.
2009 - 2014 - Worked as a Stand-In on Glee (started to reevaluate my career choice and lost inspiration for acting, decided to try starting a career in Reality TV production)
2014 - Post Production Office Manager @ 495 Productions (of Jersey Shore fame, worst experience of my life. A lot of life lessons were learned here)
2015 - 2018 - Transcriber, then worked up to Story Assistant @ 51 Minds Entertainment (here I also learned a lot about how people can reward you for hard work but hang you out to dry very easily)
2015 - 2022 - Footage Logger @ Renegade 83 (worked at Naked & Afraid. I told myself I was only doing it until I figured out my next move and I stayed there for 7 years, yikes!)
Which brings us to present day. Our company laid us off one week before the holidays (perfect timing, bosses!). So, I am currently unemployed. With the job market kind of on the outs right now, I’ve been finding it harder and harder to keep my sanity. “How much longer will I be able to afford my apartment? I’ve lost count of how many cover letters I’ve written so far. What if I never find a job? Will I just have to move back home to Sacramento and go back to work in retail? If I’m always under-qualified or overqualified for these jobs, will I ever just be qualified? Maybe I’m not meant to be a writer… “ -My brain.
I fucked around too long and now I’m finding out.
The silverlining-- Come January, I will be going back to school once a week for film classes and I’m currently spending my time off with family. So, that’s where I’m at right now. I’m in my 30s and just figured out what I want to do with my life. Then started this blog. Who knew?
