Unemployment Routine

8AM- Wake up and wash up feeling the pangs of existential dread

8:30AM- Spacing out, staring at my coffee for about the amount of time it takes to cool down.  Then, I proceed to stare at nothing and think about nothing while drinking said coffee.  

10AM- Checking job listings and revising my cover letter at list five or six times while eating breakfast.  

11AM- Failing to suppress the urge to shit talk to myself over the fact that my resume is living proof I’ve done nothing with my life.

12PM- TED Talk O’clock! (with lunch) I have a mini obsession with my TED talks, Skillshare classes, YouTube tutorials & podcasts because I like the idea of being back in school and it’s been a good coping mechanism for me

Every hour- Bonding time with my dog, Yokai.  He offers emotional support during this difficult time.  As you can see, he’s a very good boy.  

2PM- Chores/errands 

6PM- Dinner & TV Time- currently trying to find something as good as Andor was.  Any suggestions?

10PM- Dead asleep.  For the first time in years, I do not struggle with insomnia which is a HUGE deal for me.

My days are never the same.  Some days I find that I’m very productive in keeping myself busy and other days, I just want to do nothing and can barely manage to put in a couple applications in.  For me, it’s all about getting from one day to the next.  The unemployment blues won’t last long and I have a list of things to do whenever I feel bored.  I’m healthy, fortunate enough to spend this off time with my family and finding joy in the little things.  What more could I ask for?  A job, maybe.  I really feel like I could finally be happy if I was back to being employed again.  Lies I tell myself.  Sometimes lies help.  And that’s another lie.  Meta lies.